**** AUTUMN LEAF ****

• LEANDRO_NJ
  
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  Jan 12, 2013 1:39 AM GMT

  
  
  
  
  I AM IN LOVE!! ( it way sound strange calling it that, especially from someone have yet
  to see you) Love is I, the innermost self that is speaking to you now. It is not me, that
  face that you may have already seen in pictures; and even if you met me in the flesh is
  still may not be me!
  
  I am like you are to me! the other half flame trying to find and reunite with its wick! the
  darkness separating us is infinite, yet our yearning for one another keep us close.
  
  At birth I cried, but never understood why; neither did my loving parents, who thought I
  was just hungry all the time. But my spirit/soul was crying of joy in search for you! every
  journey is another chance to find you.
  
  From the window of my soul I can see reflections of my thoughts as fingerprints! but if you
  look closer they are of tears. They seem frozen in time, as an amber that carries a dormant
  seed, temporarily seeking refuge; or a traveling pollen trying to find a nest, like your heart:
  a resting place I am eager to find, especially during the turbulent and lonely journeys.
  
  In the past I shed tears of hope during the spring of my life, and felt a rebirth from within.
  And then tears of Summer, nourishing the flesh/desires for a physical encounter with you.
  A time and place where love like a flower shows off its showy, fragrant, and unforgettable
  exotic blooms, as we get to share the experiences from our worlds apart.
  
  Oh, and the tears of Autumn! where memories could be swept away in the wind. Love is a
  teardrop constantly taking shape, and depending on our spiritual growth; so will our chance
  to meet again, if at least briefly!?
  
  
  WHERE ARE YOU NOW IN THE SEASON OF LIFE?
  
  Leandro
  
  
  
  

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  Jan 12, 2013 1:42 AM GMT

  I'm almost always in love.
  
  Life is too short to be hated.

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  Jan 12, 2013 2:12 AM GMT

  paulflexes saidI'm almost always in love.
  
  Life is too short to be hated.

  
  
  True! in my experience people who love or responds to love have more zest for living and a much deeper understand of life in general. Thank you Paul!

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  Jan 12, 2013 2:49 AM GMT

  Ahhh! Valentines Day approaches!
  
  
  
  

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  GAMRican saidAhhh! Valentines Day approaches!
  
  
  
  

  
  
  Another year with no Valentine. Freedom!

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  Jan 12, 2013 3:12 AM GMT

  Yay! need I say more. I am starting the New Year's with quite a beat! thank you GAMRican for the gif. Love it!

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  Jan 12, 2013 3:18 AM GMT

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  GAMRican saidAhhh! Valentines Day approaches!
  
  
  
  

  
  
  Another year with no Valentine. Freedom!

  
  
  Believe me, I felt the same way with my last LT Ex BF! ironically three years later Love strike back around the same time it ended with my ex!

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  Jan 12, 2013 5:52 AM GMT

  I'm there with you Leandro.
  Who knows where this might lead us?
  
  Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
  And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.

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  Jan 12, 2013 11:59 AM GMT

  FUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTER

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  Jan 12, 2013 12:04 PM GMT

  I am always in love when there is some guy around.

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  MedGen saidFUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTER

  
  
  Prescription for bitterness: abundant time with friends and family, individual pursuit of hobbies and interests, indulgence in some bucket list items, and few expectations.
  
  Wishing you a speedy recovery

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  GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
  Who knows where this might lead us?
  
  Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
  And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.

  
  
  You remind me a little of Ian, realizing he was in love with Renot..
  
  Here:
  "Ian’s eyes widened as he gathered Renot in emotionally. A vast happiness threatened to overwhelm him. A precipice of feeling passed below his full heart; ‘overwhelmed’ succumbing to rapture as Ian explored Renot’s feelings from inside Renot. The experience was, of course, impossible, the perspective unlike anything he’d ever known and Ian was galvanized.
  
  For the first time in his carefully cloistered existence, he saw emotion in all its cognizant planes, how each complemented the other in some grand design and felt content, even as he watched every block and stone, wall and rampart fall away inside himself.
  
  Tears coursed from his eyes.
  
  He hung his head as his mind replayed a hundred, no, a thousand scenes of missed opportunity to connect with people and so release himself from his own prison. Now all could be let go; absolved. This came from Renot, in calm waves, as he took Ian’s arm and led him back to the house. Ian roughly scrubbed the wetness from his face and grinned. Life was a great surprise; he was in love."

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  GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
  Who knows where this might lead us?
  
  Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
  And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.

  
  
  You remind me a little of Ian, realizing he was in love with Renot..
  
  Here:
  "Ian’s eyes widened as he gathered Renot in emotionally. A vast happiness threatened to overwhelm him. A precipice of feeling passed below his full heart; ‘overwhelmed’ succumbing to rapture as Ian explored Renot’s feelings from inside Renot. The experience was, of course, impossible, the perspective unlike anything he’d ever known and Ian was galvanized.
  
  For the first time in his carefully cloistered existence, he saw emotion in all its cognizant planes, how each complemented the other in some grand design and felt content, even as he watched every block and stone, wall and rampart fall away inside himself.
  
  Tears coursed from his eyes.
  
  He hung his head as his mind replayed a hundred, no, a thousand scenes of missed opportunity to connect with people and so release himself from his own prison. Now all could be let go; absolved. This came from Renot, in calm waves, as he took Ian’s arm and led him back to the house. Ian roughly scrubbed the wetness from his face and grinned. Life was a great surprise; he was in love."

  
  
  Wait, WHAT???
  What book is This from??? I am so buying it!

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  Jan 13, 2013 4:28 AM GMT

  Forgive me if my Rose have being slow on waking in your wish garden! please know that my Rose have bloomed many seasons, where rarely anyone had stick around long enough to admire not just the blooms,but also see the depth of its roots, as in my endurance for the many seasons I have lived under its many hues of blue. If your judging eyes sees thorns, they are not to cause you pain, but to protect the many folds that holds the essence of my soul. .
  
  Leandro
  
  

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  GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
  Who knows where this might lead us?
  
  Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
  And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.

  
  
  
  Rudy you may have just discovered your secret garden!?
  
  
  Maybe that is why you feel as if that special someone, who perhaps was looking for a safe place to rest, one day as it was passing by the many close walls you have built through the years, as so many gay lovers of the heart do to protect the hidden beauty that lies within.
  
  One day he took one good look at you and thought! there is potential within this walled garden! I am going to make it my own secret garden! and so the story unfolds!! may this be the season where your Love garden not only keep blooming flowers but also cultivates the fruits of your labor in love!
  
  
  Leandro
  
  

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  Jan 13, 2013 5:03 AM GMT

  MedGen saidFUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTER

  
  
  
  I feel you for I was also bitter until one day all it took to change that was for someone to dropped a few drops of sweetness in my bowl full of tears! ever since my bitterness turned into a most delicious lemonade! sweety never ever turn away from every grain of sweetness that may come your way!
  
  Leandro

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  Jan 13, 2013 5:09 AM GMT

  Shagglot saidI am always in love when there is some guy around.

  
  
  The only someone that will never stop loving you is YOU!! and when you realize that, every other someone will start loving you! love yourself enough and I will assure you that someone will want to join you!
  
  Leandro

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  Jan 13, 2013 5:10 AM GMT

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  MedGen saidFUCK LOVE...I HATE IT! IM BITTER

  
  
  Prescription for bitterness: abundant time with friends and family, individual pursuit of hobbies and interests, indulgence in some bucket list items, and few expectations.
  
  Wishing you a speedy recovery

  
  
  Speechless!!
  
  Leandro

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  meninlove said

  GigoloAssassin said I'm there with you Leandro.
  Who knows where this might lead us?
  
  Just when i thought i got everything figured out, and my walls are strong and high, somebody comes by and breaks them all down with a kiss.
  And all the insecurities and the blood and tears come out like a deluge, washing away the facade and the false strength and the pride of someone who thought was jaded and has seen it all, and instead reminded me of what's missing, what was really important, what was really needed to evolve, to be reborn: Love.

  
  
  You remind me a little of Ian, realizing he was in love with Renot..
  
  Here:
  "Ian’s eyes widened as he gathered Renot in emotionally. A vast happiness threatened to overwhelm him. A precipice of feeling passed below his full heart; ‘overwhelmed’ succumbing to rapture as Ian explored Renot’s feelings from inside Renot. The experience was, of course, impossible, the perspective unlike anything he’d ever known and Ian was galvanized.
  
  For the first time in his carefully cloistered existence, he saw emotion in all its cognizant planes, how each complemented the other in some grand design and felt content, even as he watched every block and stone, wall and rampart fall away inside himself.
  
  Tears coursed from his eyes.
  
  He hung his head as his mind replayed a hundred, no, a thousand scenes of missed opportunity to connect with people and so release himself from his own prison. Now all could be let go; absolved. This came from Renot, in calm waves, as he took Ian’s arm and led him back to the house. Ian roughly scrubbed the wetness from his face and grinned. Life was a great surprise; he was in love."

  
  
  Love this story, thank you for sharing meninlove!!
  
  Leandro

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  Jan 13, 2013 10:48 PM GMT

  GigoloAssassin said
  
  

  
  
  It is like we are reading each other's minds/experiences!
  Wow Rudy this is what happens when people like you
  and I get crushed (in a good way) and we feel as if Love
  hit the wall into our hearts. I am still trying to understand
  why everything else that seem so important before is now
  so insignificant in comparison to how being in Love makes
  me feel.
  
  I must admit thou that I was a bit skeptical and quite concerned
  actually, about falling in Love! when I met this guy I felt as if he
  was rushing things way too fast!? but as hours, days, weeks
  went by it all started to sink in slowly but surely! I am usually
  the slow dancer type but my honey taught me that sometimes
  passion, like a quick Tango move, it can make Love so much
  the better and more exciting, if we just go alone with the music
  beat of our innermost desires. Damn I should work for Hallmark!!
  
  
  Leandro

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  LEANDRO_NJ said

  GigoloAssassin said
  
  

  
  
  It is like we are reading each other's minds/experiences!
  Wow Rudy this is what happens when people like you
  and I get crushed (in a good way) and we feel as if Love
  hit the wall into our hearts. I am still trying to understand
  why everything else that seem so important before is now
  so insignificant in comparison to how being in Love makes
  me feel.
  
  I must admit thou that I was a bit skeptical and quite concerned
  actually, about falling in Love! when I met this guy I felt as if he
  was rushing things way too fast!? but as hours, days, weeks
  went by it all started to sink in slowly but surely! I am usually
  the slow dancer type but my honey taught me that sometimes
  passion, like a quick Tango move, it can make Love so much
  the better and more exciting, if we just go alone with the music
  beat of our innermost desires. Damn I should work for Hallmark!!
  
  
  Leandro

  
  
  I think we should both be authors, lol!

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  Jan 19, 2013 3:57 AM GMT

  
  
  
  
  
  
  IN YOUR ABSENCE MY HEART KEEPS GROWING STRONGER!
  
  When you are not here our seed, like the love we've planted last season eagerly awaits for its rebirth! do you remember how the wind of change swept us in our embrace!? and how we both held on to dear life and tightly embraced, from getting blown away by the strong currents of loneliness.
  
  But here we are, still, hibernating our love from wakening up, as we patiently wait until the cold spells of our emotions to slowly warm up our bodies, minds, and souls. At times it may feel uncertain as the warm and cold days of our emotions often made us feel, but we know better then to just walk away, so we patiently wait til we reunite once again.
  
  I know the Spring of our Love is near! we know this to be true as we both have being through this season many times before! so we patiently wait for the affections to return once more! I love you!!
  
  Leandro

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  Jan 19, 2013 4:29 AM GMT

  I AM IN LOVE...WITH MYSELF. A good way to start, i think.

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  Jan 19, 2013 5:02 AM GMT

  crisBlue saidI AM IN LOVE...WITH MYSELF. A good way to start, i think.

  
  
  When one becomes in love with itself, it shouldn't be hard to love another self! because deep down we are a lot like then we lead ourselves to believe. The real challenge is in realizing that everyone is indeed a whole or shuttered mirror piece or pieces of ourselves!

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