Dealing with sexual imagery at a young age

  • venue35

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    Feb 15, 2015 1:02 AM GMT
    I left the states in 1989 for Greece with my family and we started a new life here. My parents left New Mexico because my mother's best friend opened a restaurant down the street from ours and tried to put us out of business.
    Anyways we rented a brand new house which was far from the city. There were only about 4 other houses on our street it really was quiet and the only kids my age lived across the street. The family that lived across the street were a nice couple with two kids. The father seemed strange to me he was very short and dressed in black mostly and would always wear sunglasses. I hung around their house a lot with my brother and it seemed like we would all soon become good friends. I hung in the fathers downstairs study room a lot and now day I saw a stash of porn magazines hidden under a newspaper. I was excited because I had never seen anything like that before. I soon realized that the whole room was basically full of hundreds and hundreds of pornography memorabilia..magazines vhs tapes etc. Unfortunately I discovered something far far worse. Illegal magazines depicting child pornography. We are talking 70yo men with small children. I knew it was awful. I was 12 and I couldn't believe it.. I told my brother and he said forget about it..if dad finds out we were snooping we'll be in big trouble. I took a video tape from his stash and saw my first porno at my house that night. It was a strange 70's porno flick that was just too weird. There was a really old man with a robotic hand that shoved some woman's panties into her vagina and other strange things like that. It wasn't erotic at all. The sex was cold and detached and it left a negative impression on me. To this day I wish I had never seen it. The fathers son became aware that his father was a sexual deviant and I knew he just looked the other way. The wife also knew yet did nothing or said nothing. I really regret ever meeting these people and I regret not telling my parents. I should have notified the police but I was too young and too scared. Many years later I saw the documentary capturing the Friedman's and it reminded me of that family. In 1998 his son died instantly in a car crash. The last I heard of the father was that he had lost most of his eye sight from diabetes. I can't believe that they are people who get off on things like that. Worst of all is that there are young kids who have been used for pornography and who knows what else. How can you look up to grownups when you've been used like that?? Well I think it's safe to say that at a young age these things can have a strong impact on how we think of sex especially as we get older.
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    Feb 15, 2015 1:28 AM GMT
    sounds like karma took care of him with the eyesight and all.

    do u think seeing those images as a kid impacted the way u view sex as an adult?
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    Feb 15, 2015 2:20 AM GMT
    venue35 said Well I think it's safe to say that at a young age these things can have a strong impact on how we think of sex especially as we get older.

    Interesting story.

    Do you think it has affected your sexlife?

    I suspect that reporting the neighbor to Greek authorities would not have accomplished anything. I believe restrictions on possessing child pornography are rather recent. In the past it was illegal only to make it or participate in child sex acts.
  • venue35

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    Feb 15, 2015 2:39 AM GMT
    LionEyes saidPARAGRAPHS are your friends you know? Lol. It was hard to read specially since the lines are single space. Anyway...

    Are you pondering a question somewhere or you're posting this as a way of therapy? I'm really sorry you discovered that at a young age, some people just forget about it to others it traumatized them. Have you spoke with a psychologist about this and how affected your life?

    Also, it's interesting to know that your brother feared your dad's reaction rather than expose the man, I'm not sure but did your mother knew? Did she made an attempt to denounce the man or looking to move out of that house?
    It's a good thing we are in the information era and things like that are not kept under the wraps for long.

    sorry for not putting my story in neat just came out that way. My sex life is fine but I think that I have a guilt complex somewhat and it definitely has to do with the things I saw. Do I need therapy??
    No. I just wish I had done something.
    I wish I had notified the police.
    People knew and did nothing.
    I think I told my mom many years later and she said that she always thought he was a weirdo. What makes someone like that?? There are a lot of weirdos out there.
    Talking about this makes me feel very uncomfortable.
    I've heard that in Thailand child prostitution is everywhere. It makes me sick
  • venue35

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    Feb 15, 2015 3:31 PM GMT
    well looking at child pornography is illegal and I have no idea if he ever molested anybody. But his kids obviously knew that he liked that sort of thing. The fact that he was never arrested or that he never seeked help says a lot. I just wish I had never seen those images at a young age.
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    Feb 15, 2015 3:33 PM GMT

    Yikes, I had to grit my teeth reading that; it made me angry and disgusted. What a creepy horrible Dad.